BRIAN`S WONDER

Sometimes I think about DEATH. I wonder about it. I’ve never really felt the pain of it, never lost anyone I loved dearly. I have been around people who have faced it. People who have lost who they are after one visit from this unwanted guest. I wonder a lot about it. I have seen the devastation it leaves people with; maybe I'm just too curious. They said curiosity killed the cat, and if you play with fire, you might get burned sometimes. I wonder how these people feel the anguish they are going through. No one can understand the pain of another; we might go through the same situation, but pain varies with the person facing the pain. How much has the person been exposed to before? Is the person a regular at the company of pain, or is it their first time? Is this person facing pain alone, or does the person have a support system? Was the person raised to have emotional intelligence, or were they raised to be afraid of their emotions, to hide or shy away from them? I wonder all about this. I wonder how people's pain feels; how different is it from my own pain, I wonder?

People always focus on the hurt, the pain, not the JOYS, the HAPPINESS, or the FULFILLMENT part, the moment when your chest bursts out from its cages. I have never been to the extreme ends of my emotions. I think I always kind of have a balance between the two emotions. I think emotions control us all, whether we like it or not. Does an activity make you feel happy or sad or accomplished, or does it make you feel like a failure, you know?

Sometimes I feel like I missed out in life, like I am in a completely different bubble from the other people in the world. But I try to make most of it at times. 

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