BRIAN`S WONDER

 Sometimes I think about DEATH I wonder about it. I’ve never really felt the pain of it never lost anyone I loved dearly I have been around people who have face it. People who have lost who they are after one visit from this unwanted guest I wonder a lot about it. I have seen the devastation it leaves people with maybe am just too curious they said curiosity killed the cat and if you play with fire, you might get burned sometimes, I wonder how this people feel the anguish they are going through no one can understand the pain of another we might go through the same situation but pain varies with the person facing the pain. How much has the person been exposed to before?  is the person a regular to the company of pain or is it there first time? is this person facing pain alone or does the person have a support system? was the person raised t have emotional intelligence or were they raised to be afraid of their emotions to hide or shy away from them? I wonder all about this. I wonder how peoples pain feel, how different is it from my own pain I wonder.

 People always focus on the hurt the pain not the JOYS the HAPPINESS or the FULFILLMENT part the moment when your chest bust out from it cages. I have never been in the extreme ends of my emotion I think I always kinda have a balance between the two emotions. I think emotions control us all whether we like it or not thy do does an activity make you feel happy or sad accomplished or does it make u feel like a failure you know.

Sometimes I feel like I missed out in life like am in a completely different bubble from the other people in the world. But I try to make most of it at times . 

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